Sicilian Mama wrote: I have to say to myself... "NO, YOU CAN'T HAVE CAKE... YOU ARE ADDICTED TO FOOD... THE FOOD MUST BE A COMPLETE CHANGE FROM WHAT YOU ARE EATING...OR YOU'LL JUST TRIP UP AGAIN..." over and over and over again... it got exhausting. A sliver got a little bigger the next time, then bigger again... and then I would have conversation with myself like..."Oh, just eat it... count the points, just do better tomorrow" then tomorrow came... and another sliver... It was a never ending cycle.
as i read this, i said,"yes...oh yes yes yes...........yes...yes"....and NOW, we're sisters.............
not everyone is like this....there are people on these boards that were never dieters and because of that when they had babies or different things happened to them and their bodies changed, they gained weight and then didn't know how to get rid of it...they go on let's do lunch and can eat this way FOREVER with never a temptation or a problem because they were never compulsive eaters to begin with...........
i was sometimes criticized for being overly rigid in my observance of let's do lunch.....i would tell people that if they were really serious, they shouldn't eat certain things.......they would write that they weren't losing and i'd go over with them every day what they ate and i would make suggestions to them of what they should and shouldn't be eating......i would get tired of making suggestions that they weren't listening to....someone who would write that she was eating corn thins and polaner's preserves before bed and wanted to know why she wasn't losing weight........luckily, you can eat the basic plan and never feel deprived...because that's what a lot of women need to do to be successful...
the main thing is that i KNOW that i can't go off a little....i spiral out of control........some people say here that they can't stand the taste of the old favorites........and, they say that after even a few months.....i was on let's do lunch for a year and a half without ever going off and STILL if i start eating things i shouldn't, they taste GREAT.......then, i hate myself and THE CYCLE BEGINS...
what helped me, as a greek, was all those homemade bean soups that i could eat as much as i wanted of..........that helped me more than ANYTHING................
my mother went home to be with the Lord more than 20 years ago...she would have LOVED eating this way AND losing weight...she STOPPED eating beans when she dieted because she believed they were fattening...in fact, now that i think of it, she wouldn't have BELIEVED me until she WATCHED me eat bean soup and lose weight.........
so, i resign myself to the fact that i will always be a junk food addict just like an alcoholic is always an alcoholic....THANK GOD, when i'm on track with let's do lunch i don't WANT to eat any of that old stuff and i'm totally fine.......i have to be back on for a week....after a week, i can have ANYTHING in the house and not be tempted.............
life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's about learning to dance in the rain..
! Pam
